This is it.
I'm here.
The door of my past has now been closed for good. Never for me to re-enter with fear.
A new chapter of my life is beginning in the form of a new build.
Like LEGO blocks.
I went there.
So now That I've picked all the colors I wanted to paint myself, it's time for me to work on the shading.
Everyone wants to lose weight for New Years.
Everyone.
But what if instead of choosing to go to the gym or look at it like a New Years Resolution,
What if instead of every year, we pick a couple of goals to follow through for the next few years.
Because life takes unexpected turns, and things happen to us.
But Action- Reaction isn't just a theory right?
We've seen that it works?
I'm 25.
And I can't begin to express the beauty in working miracles I've set out for myself to accomplish.
Must be nice right?
It's getting that way.
Because I've worked for it.
It's hard.
But not hard enough to make me want to quit.
That being said, I think it's important for people to push themselves.
Look at it from outside the box.
It's touchy I know to suggest we forget our feelings.
Instead of, holding onto a crippling dribble of a loose end of circumstance.
Tie that bitch up.
I'm talking about fixing from the inside out.
There are so many things we can do on a daily basis to regenerate our lives direction.
Our mind is like a root.
All we need to do is dig up the seed, and plant a new one.
So I'm putting this one in your head.
Feel better about yourself.
Look in the mirror, this New Years day with me.
Look at that beautiful self.
If you need reference on why the "eff" I am so rediculously deep and happy towards this positive antidote?
Know that all of my goals I have set out for myself to complete in the past 8 years; were in-fact completed.
On top of that I followed a time-line for myself in a drifting fashion.
I said :
"Self"
"By the time you're 25 you're going to have this, this and this completed.
And through analyzing in peaceful manner."
I did.
So now, I live where I want to. Near the ocean, rivers and woods that embed New England Charm.
Historical town rich in somber elegance and funk.
Above an organic coffee shop.
I'll have the job I want;
within walking distance of my home.
I drive a good reliable low maintenance vehicle that has durability and will take me anywhere and back on less than a tank of Gas.
And I am financially stable.
I don't depend on drugs, men, or bad habits.
When the time calls for it, I can depend on my friends if need be.
That's a tough lesson to learn.
But I've done it.
On my own.
I want to get better at playing the guitar and djembe.
Just for fun.
Because I can.
:)
The next chapter,
I want to finish school and get my degree.
I want to start doing Stand-Up comedy and gain confidence in myself and my writing.
I want to let the fact that other people will want to copy my ideas not bother me.
Because I am myself. No one else is in my head.
I want to get my fine ass into shape and build that confidence.
And by the time I'm 30 I want to own a big house, with creaky floors, and a wine cellar.
With a barn, so I can ring in a new decade with people I love in a good old fashioned family style.
I want to surround myself with people I love who love me,
and so far, I'm doing a good job.
These are MY dreams.
No- one elses.
They aren't the only ones, but they are the beginning.
And today, I'm going to continue thriving on landing in them.
My theory:
While I'm working on working out.
The plan is to come up with new ideas for me to work on.
I have to focus.
Pushing myself to the next limit will give me time to surrender to my creativity.
I has to do it!!!!
In doing so I plan on losing my pudge.
I know that.
And with ADHD, that's not an easy thing to do.
But I'll do it.
So By Valentines day I want to set a realistic goal of:
"I don't know how much weight I'll lose but I know which pieces of fat I want gone"
I want to fit into one of two dresses I have for Valentines day;
only to complete the fairy tale of a love life I have going.
It just started. But that story is for another time.
Pass this on if you believe in me.
Pass this on if you believe in yourself.
Ladies I'm here to help you see, we can have it all.
It is possible.
The Dream of a simple yet extravagant, beautiful, fulfilling life can happen.
This is how.
Chapter 2.
Week 1.
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